love dis gurl

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The thing about self harm…

Is that it makes you feel so in control.

You can say, “I choose to cut myself! I am the one eliciting pain upon my body. This, this pain is something I can control. I can feel it when I want to!”

And when you don’t eat, you’ll say, “I am in control of my body. I choose what it does and what it needs! I have the willpower and strength to withstand those hunger pains.”

And you’ll do the drugs and drink the drinks when you want to because you are choosing to give yourself that high.

And you’ll make yourself sick because you can tell your body what to do, and be happy with the results.

And you’ll be so in charge and you’ll be so powerful because of it.

But the thing about self harm…

Is that you aren’t in control forever.

Eventually, it will be a monkey on your back. It will haunt you and taunt you.

It will get to the point that you are so addicted that you are beyond control of your body and mind. 

A razor will be sitting in front of you and you will have no desire to feel the pain anymore, but your body will take over, your body will make you feel that. It will punish you for the sickness you’ve given yourself.

And it won’t accept any food you so desperately try to eat.

And it won’t let you remember a time without the drugs and the alcohol.

And it will control you. 

So, you might end up in therapy, or even a mental ward. And you’ll have to think back weeks, months, years ago to a time when you weren’t like this. A time when you couldn’t even fathom such a horrendous addiction. And your doctor will make you be that innocent person again. And they’ll cure you and let you go back home and pick up life where you left off.

But it will never leave you. From time to time, you’ll be thinking about it. You’ll be wanting to remember why you ever started in the first place.

And hopefully, your memory will deceive you.

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Lovin’ love RIP

Friends** (oh well, he’s dyslexic)

Anyway, carrying along my inspiring male figures, I love Jay freaking McDaniel

This is his signature in the Auditorium “Hole”

He is such an awesome, caring man and I cherish the years I’ve known him 

I know he’ll go great places

amorsus:

happy in
happy out
he’s the one
I’m all about
I don’t care
if its cheesy
but kissing him,
life is easy

cutecutecute lovelovelove

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lostchemicals:

letsdogood:

Island In the Sun - Weezer

always happy

So I basically have the best brother ever

He picked me up from school - with little to no complaining

He talked to me about his life and my life and we had the sex talk - because he cares about me and stufffff

Then he took me to the hospital to get my TB test done - we had lulz with the nurse

He held my hand while I got the test done - even though it didn’t hurt ^.^

Next he took me to SunniBunni and Subway - yum!

The whole time we were high-fiving and cracking up at our bad puns and genius jokes

I love this guy so freaking much

Spooning with le cat ^.^

str0ngerthanikn0w:

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You make them go crazy

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Wiener vs. Weiner (I was confused) →

I burned stars into my feet